Kai'Dence Prince Lorne passed away on Saturday August 13, 2022 at home, surrounded by his family. Kai'Dence's story is below, written by his parents.
Kai’Dence symbolized an old man
Loves his iPad
Loves listening to his music
Loves watching Charlie Colorform City
Loves sleeping under his mommy
He loves getting the fresh breeze outside
Loves eating goldfish
He loves his blanket (to rest underneath his cover)
Kai’Dence enjoyed having his own space
Music was the best scream to his ears
March 15th 2021 at 11:37am, I was able to hold and cherish something so special. And when I say something cherish-able, I really mean a better creation of me. Everything was so great, I felt so powerful and so awoken by how much of a great mother I was. Well, my life then turned upside down, in another words; the same heart that was given to me to keep me alive, was now ripped right out of my chest. I no longer knew who I was as a person. Then, a month after turning one year old, April 15th 2022, my son was diagnosed with a stage 4 cancer called Neuroblastoma. Days, minutes, and seconds pass by, and every moment I just hold on and pray, I pray to just put my dearest child at rest. Allow him to be himself, allow him to feel normal and heard just like the others. God, when you made up your decision, why did you choose my son? Why aren’t you helping me? Why is this so hard? Why do I want to give up? Why can’t I find myself? Why can’t you just let me love my little one in peace. I’m so ready for my son to get better, and when I say better, I mean take this tragedy right from him! It really kills me to watch my little one suffer from so much pain and discomfort: not able to explain to his mom what’s hurting, not able to tell mom what she can do to comfort him and give him the best support. I cry my eyes out every day trying to seek the right position to put myself in and allow myself to accept what I am facing. Traveling back and forth everyday isn’t easy, working two jobs to just keep up with payments, buying wipes and diapers, paying for gas and travels, suppling food to eat, going nights and days without sleep, without eating and being able to be myself, to just walk on to the next day, on broken knees. I’ve cried and cried so much praying everyday my knees don’t GIVE OUT, it just wasn’t an option. Taking all risk to change my life of kicking people out, pushing people away, keeping myself closed out of the way, JUST TO KEEP my lil one SAFE!!
It’s not easy, well as it’s not THE MOST COMFORT-ABLEST feeling ‘ but I’m going through this, and I’m TRYING. I really am! I love you, I love you IS NOT ever enough when it comes to defying our hearts. Your my peace of mind, you changed mom: opened doors for me that weren’t opening. You pushed me to carry you like solider. Wiped all my tears, held me when I cried (EVERYTIMEEEEE), you picked me up, and give me the reason to life. I’m sure of OUR FUTURE together, I’m SURE there will never be any issues when coming to supply you with love and courage and comfort. I’m going to give and never give up when it comes to you. It’s you, your me! I can’t believe mom couldn’t take this, I’m sorry Kai’Dence, I’m bleeding inside and I wish you could beat me for creating pain. Moms sorry BOOTY, moms here though, moms sorry I am!
You’re a true champ, you’re a true one. STRONG ASL, you’re the best, created to life, your Neuroblastoma’s Kick ASS KID cause you are A Survivor, and your story will forever be heard and never untold. I am PROUD OF YOU! I’m with you forever! My Kai’Dence Prince. As long as I live, mom will share your story.